Ramón’s Decision

It’s just before sunrise. The early spring morning is still cold, seeping through the boards of the shack that Ramón Salazar shares with his family. He awakens to the sound of his father’s stubborn coughing, like an engine that won’t start.

The date is March 17, 1966. Ramón doesn’t know this because it’s written anywhere. He knows it because he’s been counting down to it, each day like a bead on a rosary that he fingers in the dark.

The farmworker’s camp squats at the edge of Delano like something the town spat out. Rows of wooden shacks lean into one another, patched with tar paper and tin. Between them, tents sag with dew, their ropes creaking softly. The ground is a churned-up paste of old mud smelling faintly of human waste. A single spigot stands at the far end, issuing rusty water. That doesn’t deter the women who line up before dawn to fill their dented pots, shawls wrapped around their shoulders.

Ramón sits up on his cot, a slender young man of 17 with dark, sullen eyes. His sister, Ari, is still asleep on the cot next to him, her black hair fanned across her pillow. She dreams with her mouth open, one hand clutching the edge of a blanket that smells of sweat. Their mother lies on the other cot next to their father. She is also awake, staring at the ceiling. When she hears Ramon move, she turns her head.

“Hoy te levantas temprano,” she says softly.

Ramón nods. His chest feels tight from the excitement of the coming day, as if a rope has been pulled a notch tighter every week for months. He puts on his threadbare jacket and steps outside.

In the predawn light, he can see grapevines stretching out in rows into the distance. Most of the workers have been striking for months, leaving clusters of fruit unpicked. At first, Ramón felt the protest would be futile, but now a faint hope has been flickering among the Filipinos and Hispanics. They are daring to believe that a union contract with the growers is possible. This belief has grown stronger because César Chávez and his organizers will arrive this morning to launch a historic march to Sacramento.

As Ramón’s gaze sweeps across the vineyard, his hope mingles with an old, acidic anger. It has burned inside him longer than he can remember. He imagines the juice that has stained his hands since he was a young boy, joining his family on their annual migration through the vineyards and fields of California. He sees his parents’ faces as they wince from the pain in their backs. He visualizes the growers’ foremen squinting at their tally sheets, finding reasons to dock their pay. Gloves. Water. A broken tool that “must have been your fault.” It is always something, and as if this humiliation isn’t enough, there are the low flying planes that spray pesticides on both workers and crops alike.

He swallows the anger like bile, forcibly turning his thoughts to the promise of this day. He hears the laughter of Filipino men nearby. He has learned some of their words by spending time among them. They’ve taught him card games and shared meals of pancit and pinakbet. They’ve been on strike longer than the Mexicans, longer than anyone, and their patience has worn thin. Everyone’s has.

He walks toward a large flatbed truck parked near the edge of camp, a makeshift stage for the day’s event. People are already gathering and he can hear their murmurs: Chávez viene. Hoy es el día. Someone starts a chant, testing it like a drumbeat: “¡Viva la Causa!” It falters, then catches, echoing through the camp.

His father comes up beside him, hands shoved deep into his pockets. José Salazar’s face is lined from sun and constant worry. His eyes seem permanently narrowed against both glare and disappointment. He smells of sweat, tobacco, and the faint metallic tang of blood from a cut on his arm that never quite heals.

“Escucha,” his father says, nodding toward the stage. “Pero no te hagas ilusiones”

Ramón swallows. No illusions? It’s too late! Having taught himself to read with the help of tutors in the camps, he has digested the simple pamphlets distributed by the organizers. He has learned new words: dignidad, justicia, sacrificio. Words that feel like something you can build your life upon. He has listened to Chávez’s organizers in the evenings, stirred by their courage. Illusions? Yes! He has allowed them free rein as this day approached. They have crowded his mind, buzzing like bees.

The crowd continues to swell until Chávez arrives with his entourage, having traveled from his home nearby in Delano. A hush falls over the gathering. In person, Chávez always seems smaller than Ramón expects, his voice not loud but steady. The throng presses closer. Ramon can smell sweat and damp clothing. A baby fusses until its mother presses it against her breast.

“Estamos aquí porque hemos decidido caminar,” Chávez says. “Caminar juntos. De Delano a Sacramento. Para demostrarle a este país que las manos que lo alimentan están cansadas de ser invisibles.”

A cheer runs through the crowd. Ramón’s heart thuds so hard he’s sure the people next to him can hear it. Standing near him is an Anglo sympathizer, one of many who have joined the cause. Ramón can hear his Mexican friend translating for him. We are here because we have decided to walk. To walk together. From Delano to Sacramento. To show this country that the hands that feed it are tired of being invisible.

“Nuestra peregrinación será la chispa que encienda nuestra causa,” Chávez continues. “Pero recuerden esto: caminamos en paz. El verdadero valor no reside en levantar el puño, sino en ofrecer nuestro propio cuerpo, nuestro propio sufrimiento, por el bien de los demás.”

Again, the whispered translation. Our pilgrimage will be the match to light our cause. But remember this: we walk in peace. True courage is not in raising a fist, but in offering your own body, your own suffering, for the good of others.

Ramón thinks of his mother’s cracked hands, of his father’s cough, of Ari’s bare feet in winter. He thinks of the growers’ houses he’s glimpsed from the road with their wide lawns, white fences, and sprinklers ticking like clocks that always tell the right time.

“Sacrificio,” says Chávez. “Unidad. Estas son nuestras armas. ¡Viva la Causa!””

The shout erupts, loud and fierce. “¡Viva la Causa!”

“¡Sí, se puede!” someone yells.

“¡Sí, se puede!” The chant rolls and lifts, like a huge kite whose tail you could grab and ride into the sky.

Ramón feels something click inside him, like a door finally opening. He is seventeen years old and tired of bending. Tired of watching his parents swallow their anger like bitter medicine. Tired of being told to wait, to endure, to be grateful for scraps.

He looks at his father. José’s face is unreadable, as if carved from stone. His mother stands a few rows back, Ari beside her with eyes wide.

When the speech ends and people begin to talk in excited knots, Ramón knows what he must do. He will walk with Chávez. He will do more than move from one field to another, picking crops with nothing to show for it. He will make his life count for something larger than mere survival.

His mother, who seems to know him better than he knows himself, comes to stand near him and his father.

¿Qué te pasa? she asks her son, the trepidation in her voice showing that she already suspects the answer.

He takes a breath. The words feel too big for his mouth. “Voy a unirme a la marcha,” he says finally. “Voy a ayudar al sindicato.”

His father’s jaw tightens and his mother’s face goes slack. Ramón braces himself, anticipating their objections, ready to respond with the speech he has rehearsed a million times in his head. I’m not a child. This matters. I can help.

He expects anger and fear. Instead, his father exhales, long and slow, as if he’s been holding his breath for years.

“Sabía que esto venía,” José says.

His mother reaches for Ramón’s hand. Her fingers are rough and warm. “Tienes miedo?” she asks.

“Si,” Ramón says, surprised by his own honesty. “Pero más miedo tengo de quedarme igual.”

Ari looks between them, confused. “¿Te vas?” she asks, as if she can’t quite believe it.

“Por un tiempo,” Ramón says. He smiles at her, trying to ease her anxiety. “Voy a caminar mucho.”

His father nods once. “No te vamos a detener,” he says. “Pero prométenos algo.”

“¿Que?”

“Que no olvides quién eres,” José says. “Y que regreses.”

Ramón’s throat tightens. No matter how much he has been frustrated by his parents’ submission to the injustice of their plight, he could never forget them and their loving dedication to their family. He will never forget his roots. And returning? Always! No matter how far the time or distance. These are easy promises to make.

He nods. “Claro. Lo prometo.”

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The march begins just as the sun clears the horizon. Feet hit the dirt road that leads out of the camp to the highway, a mixed crowd of Filipinos, Mexicans, and Anglo sympathizers. Chávez leads the way, hoisting a banner emblazoned with the image of the Virgen de Guadalupe, her legendary appearance to Juan Diego invoking an indigenous spirituality.

Days turn into weeks as Ramón walks with strangers that quickly feel like family. They pass through other farmworker camps and small towns in California’s Central Valley. They sleep in churches, on floors, and in fields under the stars. Ramón watches Chávez fast and pray, moved by the man’s dedication and stamina. Ramón carries signs, hands out flyers, and listens to the nightly talks from the organizers. His conviction grows steadily stronger as he learns to speak to people who are angry, afraid, or skeptical, inspiring them with new hope.

Often, they pass police lines and jeering crowds, the opposition Chávez has told them to ignore. Ramón keeps his fists unclenched even when insults fly, spurred by the nonviolent example of Chávez. He learns that suffering shared becomes lighter, and he is moved by the sympathetic people who bring food, water, and blankets to the marchers. He feels something knitting together inside him, pieces of his soul torn asunder by anger that are beginning to heal.

When the march ends in Sacramento, they are greeted by a crowd of 10,000 supporters. During the ensuing rally, Chávez asks the originales to come forward, less than one hundred marchers who made the entire trek of 25 days and 300 miles. Ramon stands among them with tears in his eyes, both proud and humbled by the journey and what it has meant.

But Ramón doesn’t stop. He stays. He becomes an organizer, moving up and down the state, from fields to towns, learning to weave Spanish, English, and Tagalog as he shares words of hope and struggle. He is arrested twice but quickly released. He writes letters home when he can.

And not once does he regret the decision he has made

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Nearly a year later, Ramón crosses back into Tijuana where his family lives during the months they aren’t picking crops in the US. He walks along familiar streets, some paved, some dirt. The air is warmer, carrying the smell of fried meat and diesel.  A stray dog eyes him warily as he turns and walks down the alleyway that was the backdrop to his earliest memories.

His parents’ house is small, but it is home. Ramón and his father, with the help of neighbors, built it piece by piece from cement block. Rebar sticks out from the roof, where the Salazars dream of one day adding a second floor, a dream that has been deferred for a decade.

When Ramón knocks, the door flies open.

His mother pulls him into her, laughing and crying. “¡Mijo!”

Ari seems so much taller as she also joins the hug. His father stands back for a moment, looking him over, as if to be sure he’s real. Then José grins, wide and proud.

They feast that night. There is carne asada, beans in a thick broth, and rice flecked with cilantro. A crowd of neighbors join them, packing the house with a sense of community. Ramon tells stories of the march and his organizing in the days since it ended. But, remembering the example of Chávez, he is careful not to make himself too important. It is la gente, the people, who are the real saviors in la lucha.

He watches his parents listen and sees the way their shoulders straighten.

When they eat, his father lifts a bottle of beer. The room quiets.

“A mi hijo,” José says. “Que caminó por todos nosotros.”

Ramon’s eyes burn. His father raises the bottle even higher. “¡Sí, se puede!”

They echo the cry, their voices filling the room and spilling out into the night.

The Overview Effect

(Nationalism, religion, political ideologies, greed, and naked power grabs continue to fracture the human race, pitting us against each with tragic consequences. It leads me to share this chapter from my 2014 book entitled Invitation to The Overview, downloadable for free at this link.)

In my childhood family, what we called the “space race” was personal. I grew up in the 1960s in southern California, my father in charge of financial controls for the Apollo module. He consorted with famous astronauts and legends like Werner Von Braun. When it came time for “take your son to work day,” I got a chance to scramble through a mock-up of that small cone-shaped capsule designed to withstand both fiery reentries and violent splashdowns in the oceans of earth.

I remember the excitement in our home when a Saturn V was ready to launch a new mission from Cape Canaveral. Dad would rouse us from bed like we were about to embark on a dream vacation. He would lead us into the family living room where an early generation color TV sat on its throne. There we could see the rocket, aimed for the cosmos, steam billowing from beneath, its tip crowned with the Apollo. Dad would stalk around that screen with more intensity than a Brazilian soccer fan, the clock announcing T minus 4 hours, then 3, then 1, then the final dramatic countdown and that glorious, thunderous liftoff into the sky.

In retrospect, I know that our efforts to reach that lifeless chunk of rock were as motivated by competition as they were by scientific wonder. It was an expression of US pride, an extension of the longstanding Cold War. No Russian was going to conquer the moon before us! I’m also sadly aware of the military agendas that attended our forays into space, resulting in Strangelovian plans years later to deploy a “near space” defense system. Our land and sub-based nukes were apparently not enough, even though they represented enough doomsday power to demolish every major city on earth. We thought we needed missiles in orbit, polluting space with hardware and cancerous hatred. Thank God that plan never came to fruition.

Still, when Neil Armstrong took his immortal first step onto the lunar surface, it was a moment of wonder, a celebration of the imagination and possibilities of humankind. It taught us about our potential.

But there is an even more enduring lesson from our ventures into the beyond. It is called the The Overview Effect, a term first coined by Frank White, who explored them in his 1987 book, The Overview Effect — Space Exploration and Human Evolution in 1987. It is that moment when we turn and see our planet suspended in the vastness of space. For everyone who experiences it, this vantage point is life changing. It transforms their perspectives on Earth and humankind’s place upon it.

Here are some quotes from astronauts about their overview.

When we look down at the earth from space, we see this amazing, indescribably beautiful planet. It looks like a living, breathing organism. But it also, at the same time, looks extremely fragile. – Ron Garan, USA

Before I flew I was already aware of how small and vulnerable our planet is; but only when I saw it from space, in all its ineffable beauty and fragility, did I realize that humankind’s most urgent task is to cherish and preserve it for future generations. – Sigmund Jähn, German Democratic Republic

For those who have seen the Earth from space, and for the hundreds and perhaps thousands more who will, the experience most certainly changes your perspective. The things that we share in our world are far more valuable than those which divide us. – Donald Williams, USA

My first view – a panorama of brilliant deep blue ocean, shot with shades of green and gray and white – was of atolls and clouds. Close to the window I could see that this Pacific scene in motion was rimmed by the great curved limb of the Earth. It had a thin halo of blue held close, and beyond, black space. I held my breath, but something was missing – I felt strangely unfulfilled. Here was a tremendous visual spectacle, but viewed in silence. There was no grand musical accompaniment; no triumphant, inspired sonata or symphony. Each one of us must write the music of this sphere for ourselves. – Charles Walker, USA

Looking outward to the blackness of space, sprinkled with the glory of a universe of lights, I saw majesty – but no welcome. Below was a welcoming planet. There, contained in the thin, moving, incredibly fragile shell of the biosphere is everything that is dear to you, all the human drama and comedy. That’s where life is; that’s where all the good stuff is. – Loren Acton, USA

The Earth was small, light blue, and so touchingly alone, our home that must be defended like a holy relic. The Earth was absolutely round. I believe I never knew what the word round meant until I saw Earth from space. – Aleksei Leonov, USSR

The sun truly comes up like thunder and sets just as fast. Each sunrise and sunset lasts only a few seconds. But in that time you see at least eight different bands of color come and go, from a brilliant red to the brightest and deepest blue. And you see sixteen sunrises and sixteen sunsets every day you’re in space. No sunrise or sunset is ever the same. – Joseph Allen, USA

The Earth reminded us of a Christmas tree ornament hanging in the blackness of space. As we got farther and farther away it diminished in size. Finally it shrank to the size of a marble, the most beautiful marble you can imagine. That beautiful, warm, living object looked so fragile, so delicate, that if you touched it with a finger it would crumble and fall apart. Seeing this has to change a man, has to make a man appreciate the creation of God and the love of God. – James Irwin, USA

Suddenly, from behind the rim of the moon, in long, slow-motion moments of immense majesty, there emerges a sparkling blue and white jewel, a light, delicate sky-blue sphere laced with slowly swirling veils of white, rising gradually like a small pearl in a thick sea of black mystery. It takes more than a moment to fully realize this is Earth…home. My view of our planet was a glimpse of divinity. – Edgar Mitchell, USA

A Chinese tale tells of some men sent to harm a young girl who, upon seeing her beauty, become her protectors rather than her violators. That’s how I felt seeing the Earth for the first time. I could not help but love and cherish her. – Taylor Wang, China/USA

What if, like these astronauts, we internalized this overview, tucking it like a pearl of great price into our hearts and minds? What if it caused us to have a fundamental, life-changing paradigm shift? What if national boundaries remained for governmental purposes, but we saw them from the global vantage point of our human family? What if the current conflicts that divide us were eclipsed by our critical need to create planetary tolerance, to galvanize our collective will and protect this pale blue vessel sailing in space?

This leads me to the primary questions of this book. Is your religion, your faith tradition, or your life philosophy contributing to these universal causes? Is it compelling you to find unity, commonality, and peaceful dialogue with others, no matter how alien their faith or lifestyle seems to you? Or is it promoting exclusivity and privilege, erecting walls, fueling ancient hostilities? Is it setting you apart?

As you answer these questions for yourself, consider the glimpses of Universalism in section three—visions shared from the hearts, minds, and souls of human beings who looked beyond the veil of conventionality. The Overview was—and still is—central to their existence. We need more of their breed.