An Unforgettable Night at the Lighthouse

(According to the U.S. Coast Guard Historian’s Office, 122 women
were appointed as official lighthouse keepers from 1845 to 1912)

Port Isabel, Texas — November 15, 1860

The night air tasted like salt and iron. It pressed in through the cracks of the lighthouse keeper’s cottage, carrying the murmur of the Gulf of Mexico, a sound Hannah Harn had come to know as well as her own breathing. Outside, the beacon atop the Port Isabel Lighthouse shone steady, its beam sweeping toward the Brazos Santiago Pass. Hannah had lit it promptly at 5:00 p.m., ensuring its operation through another night.

Feeling restless, she left the cottage, walked the stone pathway to the lighthouse, and climbed its spiral staircase. The sleeves of her dark wool dress were rolled neatly to her elbows, revealing forearms strong from years of polishing brass and trimming wicks. When she got to the lantern room, she checked her pocket watch. 12:13 a.m.

She gazed out at the sea, its surface ink-black under the stars. As the beam from the great Fresnel lens swept back and forth, she allowed herself a satisfied smile. It felt good to be responsible for such a marvel of engineering, its concentric rings of glass magnifying the flame until its light could be seen for twenty miles. Her late husband, John, had been so proud when the lens arrived from France and they installed it, replacing the old whale oil lamps they’d tended since the lighthouse opened in 1852.

“It’s like holding a star in your hands,” he said, his weathered face illuminated by wonder as he lit the new apparatus. “Just think, Hannah, our light reaching out so far. All those sailors find their way home because of what we do here.”

Hannah’s throat tightened. For almost a year now, she’d kept the light alone, ever since John died of a sudden heart attack. They had just finished breakfast and he’d been laughing at something she’d said about gulls defecating on the observation deck. Suddenly, he slumped to the floor and went silent. She tried to revive him to no avail. She ran out of their cottage and into town, knocking frantically on the local doctor’s door, but by the time they got back, it was no use. The doctor told her it was the Lord’s will, a phrase she has always despised.

The very next day, despite her grief, she told the Harbormaster that she would take over John’s duties. He stared at her, first in disbelief, then in mild amusement.

“It’s highly irregular,” he said, avoiding her eyes and shuffling papers on his desk. “A woman keeper…”

But Hannah persisted. John had taught her everything, she explained. How to trim the wick, how to calculate the right amount of whale oil, how to read the weather in the colors of the sunset and direction of the wind. Then she told the Harbormaster of another Hannah—Hannah Thomas—the first woman lighthouse keeper in America, a story she had learned in Massachusetts before moving to Texas. After her husband died in the Revolutionary War, Thomas tended the strategic Gurnet Light on Plymouth Bay for ten years, an inspiration to other women in a patriarchal era.

“I’m perfectly qualified,” Hannah concluded. “And who better? I learned from the man himself. Is it more irregular to appoint me, or let the lighthouse go dark while you search for someone to learn what I already know?”

He’d given her the appointment. Conditional, temporary, subject to review. That had been nearly a year ago, and the light had burned every night without fail. Ships laden with Texas cotton—bales upon bales of white gold bound for New Orleans and beyond—passed safely through the channel under her watch. She’d earned her place as the only female lighthouse keeper on the Texas coast.

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Tonight, the air seemed preternaturally still, the sea smooth as glass. Stars shone clear and bright in a crystalline sky, undimmed by the occasional fog of the Gulf. On the horizon, a faint flicker marked the last departing ship of the day. The town of Port Isabel glimmered with a few lights, and beyond it to the southwest, mainland Mexico stretched into the distance.

She checked her pocket watch again, 1:15 AM, then sat at a small table she and John had always used. On top of it was a folded copy of the Galveston Daily News, delivered yesterday. She had read it that afternoon. It spoke of Abraham Lincoln’s election just two weeks earlier, as well as the growing talk of secession rippling through the South, including Texas. If conflict broke out between the states, she wondered what would happen to Port Isabel and the status of the lighthouse. It concerned her, but on this night – with the Gulf so peaceful beneath the stars – rumors of war seemed far away.

She pulled out her knitting from a drawer, clicking the needles in a rhythm that matched the lens’s rotation. This had been her evening routine, a meditative cycle of work and watch. During the day, she could walk to town and speak with merchants or sailors’ wives, feeling part of the bustling port community. But at night, she was encased in solitude, alone with the light and her memories.

Her thoughts turned to John. His voice, his laugh, and the rough warmth of his hands. He used to call her “my treasure.” He’d said it the very first day he brought her to Port Isabel as his new bride in the summer of ’52, when the lighthouse was barely finished.

“This is my post,” he’d said, gazing up at the white tower. “And you’re my treasure at the top of it.” After that, he often used that affectionate name for her, saying “Good morning, my treasure” or “What did you read in the paper, my treasure?”

Their marriage wasn’t perfect. They argued like other couples. But Hannah knew that in his heart, John adored her. And unlike most of the other men she observed in South Texas, her treated her as a true equal. It was still so strange to think that she had outlived him and assumed his post.

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Another hour passed and Hannah stayed in the lantern room, not tired enough to retreat to the cottage. The constellations of the Northwestern Hemisphere wheeled overhead, including her favorite, Pegasus. She and John often pored over a lithograph star chart, a prized possession, testing each other’s knowledge of the heavens.

She sighed, lifted her gaze beyond the windows, and that’s when she saw it, a brightness on the horizon.

At first she thought it was a ship, its running lights unusually brilliant. But the light grew too bright, too fast, dazzling against the calm darkness of the sea. It shimmered, swelled, and seemed to move not along the water but above it.

She blinked and rubbed her eyes. As it got closer, she realized it wasn’t a ship. It had no mast, no hull, no motion on the waves. It seemed to be a self-contained ball of molten silver gliding over the water. It pulsed faintly as it drew nearer, casting an eerie radiance.

A shiver ran down her spine. “What on earth…” she murmured.

She opened the door that led to the observation deck and walked out to the railing, the night air heavy with the smell of ocean brine. The light was still coming, faster and brighter, until it hurt to look at.

It reached the shallows, then lifted up from the sea, tall enough that the beam from the Fresnel lens shone straight through it, breaking into a thousand shimmering fragments like sunlight through mist.

It wasn’t lightning. It wasn’t fire. It wasn’t anything she had ever seen. Then, as she stared, it began to move toward the lighthouse and her heart started pounding.

She turned and rushed down the spiral stairs, skirts clutched in one hand, the heavy ring of keys in the other. Every instinct told her to make sure the tower was locked up tightly. When she reached the thick oaken door, the seams around it glowed faintly as the light approached. She bolted it, her fingers trembling, then pressed her ear to the wood.

At first, only silence. Then footsteps, faint at first, approaching along the stone pathway, growing more distinct. Filled with fear, she quickly retreated up the spiral stairs, making sure the door to the lantern room was equally secure. But now, somehow, the footsteps were inside the tower. How could that be? She gripped the brass handle of the lantern room door, making sure it was locked tight.

Still, the footsteps drew closer, echoing on the iron stairs, until they stopped on the other side of the door. She could feel a presence there, could sense it waiting. The silence was broken only by her ragged breathing and the steady tick of the clockwork that turned the lens.

“Who goes there?” she finally called in a sharp voice.

 No answer.

 “Who’s there?” she demanded again, mustering more courage than she felt.

 A pause.

 Then, softly—heartbreakingly familiar—came a voice.

 “It’s alright, my treasure,” it said. “I will always be near.”

 Hannah froze. Her throat closed, and she pressed her hand to her chest.

 “John?” she whispered.

 But the voice said nothing more.

For long seconds, the world held still. Then the air seemed to exhale. Through the crack beneath the door, she saw the light dimming, softening from white to gold, then to nothing. When she finally dared to open it, the stairwell was empty. But something had changed. The brass railings gleamed brighter than before, as though freshly polished. Behind her, the great Fresnel lens turned in its slow, majestic rhythm, clearer than she had ever seen it.

She stood there for a long time at the top of stairs, one hand resting on the railing as tears blurred her vision.

“My treasure,” he had said. The exact words, his voice as unique as his fingerprints.

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In the morning, the sky dawned cloudless. The wind had picked up from the east, rattling the shutters and carrying the cry of gulls. Hannah went about her duties as usual, though she moved through the day in a quiet daze.

She had convinced herself that, given the late hour, she had fallen asleep at the table and dreamed the whole incident. But outside the cottage, she saw footprints in the sand that led to the stone walkway. They were clearly a man’s. She followed them to the shoreline where they vanished into the surf.

She knelt and touched one, feeling the damp impression under her fingers, and for the first time since John’s death, she wept openly.

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Days passed. Then weeks. A story spread through the small settlement of Port Isabel about a ghostly light seen offshore. Sailors drinking in the local pub said they’d observed a second beacon burning above the lighthouse, even brighter than the Fresnel lens.

Many townsfolk asked Hannah what she thought of the phenomenon. She didn’t deny it had happened but merely agreed with them that it was strange and unprecedented. She never revealed what had happened in those moments. She just kept her routines of tending the lamp and filling the logbook in her neat script. But occasionally, late at night when the wind was low and the sea calm, she swore she could hear footsteps again on the stairs. Never threatening. Never materializing into something she could see. And instead of fear, she felt only comfort and peace.

Sometimes she would speak softly into the silence: “John, if that’s you…” And though she never heard his voice again, the flame of the lens would seem to brighten for a moment, as if in answer.

On Top of the World

Kevin adjusted the greasy wrench in his hand and leaned back from the Ferris wheel’s steel frame. The setting sun bled pink and gold into the horizon near Springfield, Missouri, their latest stop on the circuit. He’d been sweating since noon, his muscles sore from bolting the enormous machine together with his coworker, Rick. The Ferris wheel was their kingdom. Dangerous, heavy, and finicky, it required absolute attention. It could thrill hundreds of strangers in a single day, but a missed bolt or an untested wire could wreak havoc. Just a few years earlier, a similar model in New Orleans had come dangerously close to spinning out of control.

Across from him, Rick grinned through a cigarette and slapped the wheel’s support beam. He was a grizzled man in his fifties, affectionately called “old-timer” because of his decades on the road.

“Solid,” he said. “Ready for some new revolutions.”

“Rock solid,” said Kevin, giving a thumbs up sign.

Kevin liked the weight of his responsibility, making sure that people could climb into the gondolas and rise into the sky, trusting their lives to both the steel and his operation. Most nights, when the crowds finally went home and the carnival lights dimmed, he had a little ritual. Rick would let him ride alone to the very top, then lock the wheel in place for a few moments. Kevin would sit back, legs stretched out, a glowing city or moonlit countryside stretching into the distance.

I’m on top of the world, he would say to himself.

He hadn’t always felt that way.

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Kevin was thirty years old, though most people thought he was younger because he still had the boyish good looks and easy slouch of someone barely out of his teens. He’d dropped out of junior college after a year and a half, bored by textbooks and fluorescently lit classrooms. His parents had sighed, shaken their heads, and said things like, “You’ll regret this someday.” Maybe they’d regret it, thought Kevin. He never did.

Instead, he left home and drifted. He worked as a stock boy, a roofer, a dishwasher, and a mechanic’s assistant, but nothing stuck until he signed on with the carnival. He did so on a whim, tagging along with a guy named John, a fellow mechanic at a garage. John quit after only a month, but Kevin stayed. That was three years ago.

The pay wasn’t great, but it was steady. What mattered most to Kevin was the sense of community shared among the workers. The carnival was a misfit’s refuge for drifters, ex-cons, recovering addicts, and folks with broken pasts. People the world often shunned, yet in the daily routine of their comradery, they were family. They worked, they partied, they bickered, and they kept moving. Kevin liked the rhythm of it.

To save money, Kevin didn’t rent a room in one of the trailers offered by the company. Instead, he pitched his tent behind them, using the communal shower and eating cheap food from the cook wagon. It wasn’t glamorous, a Spartan existence, but it gave him a sense of freedom.

Perhaps for the first in his entire life, he felt like he really belonged.

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Marcy caught Kevin’s eye the first summer he worked the wheel. She ran various game booths on the midway—ring toss one week, balloon darts the next—her voice scratchy from years of calling out to customers: “Step right up and try your luck! Win a prize! Don’t go home empty-handed! She was a couple years older than him but carried herself with the confidence of someone who had no regrets about her choices.

She had bleached blonde hair with darker roots showing, a nose ring, and tattoos creeping out from under her tank tops. Her skin had that sun-leathered look common among carnies who live under open skies. Kevin thought she looked exotic, beautiful in a way that felt raw and untamed. Most of all, he loved the way she laughed, a free and guttural sound that cut through the din of the carnival. Sometimes, when the Ferris wheel was near the game booths, he could hear her, and it made his attraction stronger.

He’d always been awkward around women. He’d had one serious relationship in high school with a girl who was equally introverted, but their lack of passion caused the relationship to fizzle. After that, he did some random dating, but nothing lasted. He could fix an engine, bolt a Ferris wheel, or patch a tent flap, but his tongue usually tripped when he tried addressing the opposite sex. With Marcy, though, he forced himself to try. A joke here, a question there, slowly building a connection between them.

One night after closing, they were sitting on overturned buckets behind the dart booth, sharing smokes. The carnival grounds were quiet except for the distant whir of generators.

“So, why’d you join up?” Kevin asked.

Marcy shrugged, blowing smoke toward the stars. “At this point, it feels like I didn’t join. I just never left. I ran away from Iowa when I was seventeen, hitched with a carnival, and here I am after fifteen years.”

He knew there was more to her story, something she had run from, but he felt awkward about asking. Instead, he said, “Well, you definitely seem to like it,” feeling lame for stating the obvious.

Her lips curled into something halfway between a smile and a sneer. “It’s better than starving. And better for sure than going back.”

Kevin nodded. “Yeah. Better than going back.”

Something passed between them—an understanding that neither of them had much else but this.

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Kevin found excuses for being near Marcy. He’d swing by her booth before the gates opened, helping her line up prizes or restock darts. Sometimes she’d trade him free throws for fixing a loose hinge.

“Careful,” she teased once. “You hang around too much and people will think you’re sweet on me.”

He flushed, mumbling something about just being helpful, but Marcy poked his arm and laughed in that way he loved.

They started eating together at the cook wagon, sitting shoulder to shoulder on the worn benches. They’d walk the grounds after closing, Kevin pointing out constellations overhead while Marcy rolled her eyes.

“You sound like some kind of philosopher,” she said.

“Maybe,” he replied, grinning. “A philosopher who can also bolt a Ferris wheel.”

Late one night, leaning against the wheel’s frame, Marcy suddenly poured out the story of her nuclear family. The abuse she’d suffered at the hands of two different stepfathers and her mother’s complicity. She claimed she had never told anyone else about it, and as he listened, the bond between them deepened. In turn, he shared the story of his own upbringing, how he never felt adequate compared to his older brother—the golden boy to his parents—living in his sibling’s shadow until he felt invisible.

She listened intently, then suddenly surprised him with a quick kiss, her breath smelling of cigarettes. Kevin froze, his heart racing, but when she laughed at his expression, he found himself laughing too. From then on, they were lovers, periodically spending the night together in his tent.

But Kevin always sensed that she carried a quiet readiness to leave, no matter how close she seemed.

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As months went by, Kevin’s feelings for Marcy grew much deeper than infatuation. He thought about her constantly, even fantasizing about a future in which they would get married and share a trailer.

That dream crystallized when Johnny, the carnival electrician, married Lisa from the funnel cake stand. Kevin and Marcy attended the wedding ceremony behind the trailers, with a makeshift string of lights and a preacher for hire from the local town.  As Johnny and Lisa finished their vows and everyone cheered, Kevin watched Marcy clapping joyfully, and he thought, why not us?

The idea wouldn’t let him go.

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When the carnival rolled into Albuquerque for the state fair, Kevin skipped breakfast and hitched a ride into town. He found a pawn shop off Central Avenue, its neon sign flickering even during the day. Inside, one of the glass cases glittered with rings, some with real gemstones, others just costume jewelry. Kevin’s palms sweated as he chose a silver band with a large, bright stone.

“Good choice,” said the middle-aged man behind the case. “That’s a zircon and most people would never know it’s not a diamond. Who’s the lucky woman?”

Kevin blinked, his courage waning for a second. He was so far out of his comfort zone that he barely knew himself. “Her name’s Marcy. We’ll see if she feels lucky.”

“Well, I wish you the best possible outcome, young man.”

They dickered over the price, and after purchasing it, Kevin felt like he was now on auto pilot with his plan. No turning back. That night, after set up, he found Marcy behind the dart booth. The sweat and dirt on her brow only made her more beautiful to him.

His throat tightened as he pulled the ring from his pocket. “Marcy,” he said, his voice hoarse with emotion. “Will you marry me?”

She looked at the ring curiously, then at him, giving no answer. Then she took it, slipped it into her pocket, and abruptly walked away.

Kevin stood there, thinking you fool, maybe you ruined everything.

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Marcy seemed to avoid him the next day, and Kevin’s fear that he had lost her settled into his gut. That night, after a long day of keeping the Ferris wheel running, he was ready for his ritual. Rick gave him the nod, and Kevin climbed into an empty gondola. But just as the wheel creaked to life, he heard footsteps behind him.

“Hold up!” a voice called.

He turned. Marcy stood there, her hair messy from the wind. She’d applied makeup that had smudged around her eyes. Without a word, she climbed in beside him.

Rick grinned and started the wheel. Slowly they rose, the carnival shrinking below and Albuquerque stretching out around them, glowing like a field of stars across the high desert toward the Sandia Mountains.

At the top, the wheel stopped, the gondola swaying in the warm night breeze. Kevin’s throat was dry. He wanted to speak, to apologize for messing everything up, for being the kind of guy who didn’t know what to do around women, but Marcy just took his hand.

“Yes,” she whispered.

Kevin blinked. “Yes?”

She leaned closer, her lips brushing his ear. “Yes, I’ll marry you.”

For a moment, Kevin thought his heart might burst. He wrapped his arms around her, holding her tight while everything else fell away. They kissed, slow and sure, and when they pulled back, they sat in silence, watching the city lights.

Kevin thought: This is it. This is what it really feels like to be on top of the world.